How does being chronically ill make you feel?
Physically: I have shooting pain, dull achy pain, throbbing pain, pulsing pain, burning pain and spasm pain. I also experience numbness. I have constant nausea. I am exhausted 75% of the time, the other 25% I'm just tired. Sometimes I feel terrified for... some reason I guess. My body hasn't let me in on the secret of what that reason is yet.
Emotionally: So many feelings... so, so many feelings. I feel mad. There are so many things I want to do that are now a hundred times more difficult to accomplish. I feel sad. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself because things aren't *fair*. I know life isn't fair but you know what, that doesn't mean I can't be pissed off about it from time to time. I feel misunderstood. I feel judged. I feel helpless.
I also feel challenged. There are days where I feel like I am clinging on at rock bottom but one thing I will never do is give up. I might be stuck in bed today but rest assured that the next time I have a good day I will live the crap out of it.
Physically: I have shooting pain, dull achy pain, throbbing pain, pulsing pain, burning pain and spasm pain. I also experience numbness. I have constant nausea. I am exhausted 75% of the time, the other 25% I'm just tired. Sometimes I feel terrified for... some reason I guess. My body hasn't let me in on the secret of what that reason is yet.
Emotionally: So many feelings... so, so many feelings. I feel mad. There are so many things I want to do that are now a hundred times more difficult to accomplish. I feel sad. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself because things aren't *fair*. I know life isn't fair but you know what, that doesn't mean I can't be pissed off about it from time to time. I feel misunderstood. I feel judged. I feel helpless.
I also feel challenged. There are days where I feel like I am clinging on at rock bottom but one thing I will never do is give up. I might be stuck in bed today but rest assured that the next time I have a good day I will live the crap out of it.
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